I don’t know what’s wrong with me. Does anyone else out there ever get excited about a new opportunity and think things are going to work out a lot faster than they actually do.

I seem to do that a lot.

I also seem to have trouble sticking with one course of action. It’s hard to figure out why? In my head I know things are going to take time. I know I’m probably not going to obtain success over night. But I struggle with what I’m sure a lot of people struggle with. I get to a certain point and I start doubting myself.

It’s not because I don’t think I can do it, but I don’t know what it is. I’ve written novels before. I’m drawn and published my own comics before. I know I can do those things because I’ve already done them. So then what is it?

As long as I can remember I’ve wanted to be a professional creative. I’ve wanted to work on my own projects, creating my own worlds, and do it professionally i.e. make a living at it.

I’ve come close. In 2018 I created a pen name and published a number of book in a genre that I kind of like, and that genre was kind of hot at the moment. It was a success and that year I made 40k.

I thought, this is it. This is the moment I’ve been waiting for.

But the moment didn’t last and I was left wandering the digital wasteland again. Trying to find my way. Trying to find my course.

So here I am again. This blog post is kind of me rambling, but there is an overall point and why I’m blogging today. There are a few writers out there that I see and I go “That! That is what I want to be doing.”

One of those is Dean Wesley Smith. That man has been writing I think for over 40 years. He’s published numerous books but more importantly to me is he’s published his own work and been a working professional for most of his writing career, if not all of it.

So what I’m going to do is study his interviews, his works, his keynote speeches, and learn.

I know I can do this. I can live full-time off of my writing. So that’s what I’m going to do. That’s why I’m blogging today, and I’m going to try and blog everyday for a year straight. Why? Because it’s something DWS has done.

He’s also a big proponent of Heinlein’s Rules. This first rule is you must write.

So that’s what I’m going to do. Write. Write my fiction, write these blogs. Just write.

See you tomorrow.

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